Working Life

October 18th was my anniversary for working a year in the Supermarket. When I first started the job, I was so pleased I was in employment and also so happy that I enjoyed the job. I didn't feel utterly consumed, physically and emotionally, and I loved working and earning money...It was my first job.

I attempted two other jobs before this which were horrible - one was working in Hollywood Bowl. I was in the kitchen. I remember standing around all day feeling emotionally on edge. I started at 12pm and finished at 8pm on a Sunday and I went for my break about 6. I sat there eating my banana in an empty room. It was really awful and it scared me that This Is What The Real World Is Like. I sobbed on the walk home and then not quite ready for that real world, didn't go back.

I then got another job in Mcdonalds which was even worse. I was paired with this awful boy and I had to lift boxes that were too heavy for me and he liked bossing me around and also commenting on the women's breasts who drove through the drive-thru. I started crying after the first hour and then left my Uniform there and told the manager that this job isn't for me.

Since I lived with my parents it wasn't crucial I had a job and it just makes me think of how awful it must be to have to do a job you hate.

Even though there are probably loads of better jobs out there I do enjoy it mostly, in comparison to what I felt in my previous jobs. I actually find it more enjoyable than when I was in education strangely! In education I was always filled with a lethargy when I was there and when I'd finished and hated the endless lingering feeling that I had work to do. In the supermarket I mostly feel alert and feel productive and I don't have to do P.E.

Well, I don't really want to work in a supermarket forever but I am not sure what else I should do just yet..I'm so indecisive and it's tricky working it out.