Six breadcakes (Or "bread rolls" I think they are called if you aren't from Yorkshire-y areas...!)
A pile of chips
Two Magnums (the icecreams, not weapons. However ammo probably would have been the healthier option)
A pile of chips
Two Magnums (the icecreams, not weapons. However ammo probably would have been the healthier option)
I feel gluttonous. Reading the words make me feel sick.
I have a strange relationship with food. All my life I have stuffed it into my mouth until I've felt sick and everyday is always the planned day that I will never eat badly ever again. Weight Watchers is more like a revolution in my life than a healthy eating plan as it has changed the way I am with food. Well it has curbed my habits with food. I need someone to be watching over me, and someone to report to weekly about my eating habits, otherwise I will descend into unhealthy eating and then my weight will ascend.
The way I lust after food worries me. Before I take my first few bites, I think it's the best thing I could possibly do and will make me happier than anything. It follows with guilt and thoughts of self-loathing.
Yet I still continue.
I enjoy Weight Watchers as I can eat most things and feel guilt free. I do get hungry, and long for chocolate sometimes but I am still carrying on with it.
I think the important thing with losing weight is persistance. One of the things that puts people off attending the weigh-in is if they have put weight on and have to face their gain on the scales in front of someone. I find this helpful as it gives me a reality check and helps regain my motivation. You have to accept that some weeks will be "bad" and you might "go off track". If you can accept this will happen, and you might go a few steps back from time to time, it's easier to carry on ahead.
I was just over 13 stone when I began my new way of eating and I'm around 10 and a half stone now...it does feel like a burden has lifted but also like I have a long way to go, and this struggle with food and the desire to eat and eat, will be with me for life...so I guess I will be attending Weight Watchers for a very long time.
3 comments:
I can see how the weigh-in thing works, but I think I would be absolutely terrified of it.
I know the struggle you talk about though, although maybe in a milder way. Certainly I know that desire to eat followed by dissatisfaction followed by guilt... and it is habit, some of that, which is why it's so hard to get out of. For some reason I recently got into the habit of eating biscuits in the evening and now I feel like I have to have a biscuit after dinner. I'm trying to break that one now... not least because I don't even like biscuits that much!
I can understand you being terrified of the weigh-in but I think my leader being easy going is what makes it slightly easier.
Perhaps if you tried to cut down on the biscuits rather than rule them out, or eat something tasty but healthier (like strawberries) in place of the biscuits or buy healthier biscuits it would be easier.
A student who is on her placement at the dementia centre I volunteer at had a box of cold vegetables like brocolli and peas for her lunch..I wish I could be someone who enjoyed eating things like that!
Me too! I would happily eat a box of raw vegetables... along as there was a big hunk of crusty white bread and a good dollop of garlic mayonnaise alongside!
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