Secret Diary

I was cleaning out my room when I came across a diary I had written in when I was 11 and 12. It was interesting reading it as I seem so..young. At the time I thought I was the height of maturity. It's not very in-depth or well written, and I've included all the entries I've written in the diary I just didn't write in it very often! There are quite a few spelling mistakes and at the time I liked to use the word "bitch" a lot and liked to rate each day out of ten....


12th April 2002
Kate didn't come
I hanged about with Mouna
I did PE - netball.

7/10

15th April

Didnt walk up to school with amy she was late i think. ignored and shouted at me - bitch.
Kate didnt come
got moved down a set in maths
ITS BETTER i think
NOT AS MANY PEOPLE
Amy wen walking from school said hello only to kirsty
I think she likes her better than me

8/10

17th April
went in the car to school with amy
bitch in science copied my work so i was bored
walked home Kate said 'coming out' to Luke "N" Kirsty and
coming to skool 2morro Jen

5/10

9th of May
amy is always late - told her she said
"God you always yoused to be late you look like you are going to cry" bitch!
Sat next to Jonny in humanities
was ok
My hamster didnet come out yesterday

4/10

10th of may
Did rounders it was ok.

23rd of May
Did P.E
Sarah keeps errgnoring me and going off with Donna, she dosnt want to hang out with me after skool.
She asked Laura if she was cumin out - bitch
Sarah R, Kirsty & Hailie kept makin fun of me cus i had greasy hair and yesterday Sarah knicked my nice pen. i hate her.
Sarah is my only real m8 and she dosnt want to hang out

5/10

24th of May
big brother starts today at 9 i am exited
i had P.E today i am trying not to do very well in P.E cus i dont want to get moved up next year.
Sarah ignores me she says she did cus i ignored her but she was the one ignoring me.
i am on the internet now seeya
Jenny

7/10

4th September
I start school 2morroe "Oh No"
I started my period August 29th Yey
Dont wanna go 2 school
"HATE IT"

2nd December 2002
hello since i wrote life has gone down hill.
i have no friends . i thought since kate goes to the shops she would treat me better.
she treats me worse. i feel so lonley. I miss Leo. Im not at school. I am dreading it tommorow.
Only as Kate will be saying 'I am aloud days off" bitch! Oh well
I am missing english "oh know"
gotta go by by

9/10 (no school 4 me)

April 2003
It was okay since I didnt go to school
Easter holidays -
watched "Thats so Raven"
My sister said i may b depressed

Snow

Yesterday, snow was everywhere. It was like a winter wonderland. It seems it was a "snow day" as everything had stopped but I didn't have any plans anyway! I did venture outside to take some photographs though...

Everywhere is still covered in snow but it has turned icy and hard as rock.








It's also interesting to see a cat's footprints in the snow, as you never usually get to see where they are going!

Films

I went to the Cinema with Mum to see the film “Australia”, Mum thought it was really good and starting crying at points…but I was a bit bored and left unmoved. It was too predictable. I felt like the makers of this film had read “Epic Films For Dummies” before filming it and made sure they included all the essential bits such as:
> Emotive orchestral music
> A few dramatic deaths
> A few dramatic near-deaths
> Romance
> Sexy protagonists
> A love scene
> Walking out of a smokey haze after a dramatic bit
> Impressive stunts and action
> Bad guys
> Kisses in the rain

I watched a film called “Sweet Sixteen” the other day. It was about a boy who had grown up in a rough area of Scotland and also had a rough and poor upbringing and his Mum was going to leave prison the day before his sixteenth birthday. Despite this he was determined to make things right for him and his Mum. He had very noble and honest intentions even though he probably didn’t go about it in the most honest way, it seemed the be the only way he knew how at the time…

I found the film a lot more moving and engaging than “Australia”. It made me think it doesn't need to be a star studded cast, or be a complex story and include compelling music for it to be a good film.

I included the trailers of both films:

Look North

I was watching Look North this evening and Claire Young of the Apprentice (which I haven't seen) was a guest on the show discussing charity work she has been doing and also some people who have made a Christmas CD to raise money for Bluebell Wood - all good things really.

It really annoyed me as the presenter Christa Ackroyd kept interrupting and asking trivial questions such as "Do you travel first class or economy class?". Then when the male guest is promoting the Christmas CD, he says who wrote it, and Christa responds, "He's quite famous isn't he?".

It seems a question someone who wasn't really interested would say.

Then the female guest begins discussing Bluebell Wood and her time being at the hospice and what a great cause Bluebell Wood is and Christa responds with "You didn't meet Sean Bean did you? Isn't he lovely?"

The final annoying and thoughtless thing was when Claire Young says she isn't having Christmas at home as she is planning Christmas for 1500 children and rather than discussing that, Christa asks her who her celebrity crush is and they begin discussing that!

I dislike Christa now, the stupid woman!

I managed to find it on the BBC website, but I suppose it won't be up for long:
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/england/7736486.stm

Puppy Cam

I recently stumbled across this: http://cdn1.ustream.tv/swf/4/viewer.45.swf?cid=317016

or if this HTML thing works, this:



It's a live stream of a litter of puppies. I keep going back to it to watch them going about their daily lives. Watching them being alive is so engrossing and fascinating and not to patronise them, but it's also quite sweet!

It's Christmas Soon

This post might be a bit too early! But oh well...It's Christmas soon. I sense it's Christmas soon as in the supermarket things such as tinsle, christmas cake, and presents are streaming through the checkout. I'm not religious but do I accept and send presents and eat lots of food. For people who are religious it's celebrating Jesus' birthday-if you didn't know that boys and girls. I have been reflecting on past Christmasses, and Christmas day is always dull and quiet in my house.

People see Christmas as CHRISTMAS DAY and everything before it is the administrative work in preparation for the big day but I think the most fun of it is what is before Christmas. My favourite bits of this commercial holiday are:

christmas cards
buying and wrapping presents
baking food
christmas songs and carols
brass bands
having "it's christmas soon" conversations with people
writing "it's christmas soon" blogs
decorations - tinsle, fairy lights, festive ornaments
looking at people's decorated and glowing houses

I have already started listening to Christmas songs, I am getting into the spirit rather early.

My Favourite Ways To Relax

I think relaxing is quite important. I only work part-time most of the time so you would think I get plenty of time to do so, and I do, but I don't often feel so. Right now I feel awkward and brittle.

My favourite ways to relax are:

Having a bath - I think like many others, the moment you sink into the water something is released and you tingle and whatever guard or brittleness you had dissolves in the water. It's a really great luxury as I have only had a bath in my house for a few years and so never got to have them before. Afterwards I always feel fresh. My 4 year old neice enjoys baths, in her words..."I like baths; I like being nice and clean." I agree with this and something bath lovers will all relate to and understand.

Watching a film - For me personally I find going to the cinema quite relaxing as the big darkened room is an escape from the real world. If you go to the Cinema in the afternoontime it's really good as there are never many people there...sometimes if there are a lot of people there crinkling wrappers and stuff, it makes me the opposite of relaxed.

Craft-y type things - Anything which you can lose yourself in is very relaxing. I have recently started drawing and painting, and even though I'm not "good" I don't mind at all as I like doing it regardless of the result which is something that makes it enjoyable and relaxing. If I was worried about the result I would find it the opposite. I worry quite a lot of the time - and having something to concentrate on relieves my mind of most thoughts as I can just think about the task at hand.